Aim high.

Aim high, that's the sentence I kept repeating to myself when I was in high school. Then I lost it in the past few years during my undergraduate study, the years in which I was doing something totally dull and forced to pursue something I have completely no passion in. It was tough to feel that I wasn't me, and it's also tough enough to forget my favorite phrase: Aim high.

I didn't pick it up intentionally, but it just keeps pop into my mind as a clock keeps ticking. It reminds me of what I'm supposed to require myself. Yes, I've changed a lot these years, a lot different from the girl I was in high school, especially my personality, my ways of dealing with people around me, and my reflection of myself. But no, I'm not different enough to forgo the desire of excelling. I still crave for pride, success, and self-fulfillment. These things have faded away so badly in the last few years, and recently, thank god I'm conscious enough to feel them again.

I accidentally browsed a high school senior's page on Xiaonei and found that she is now working as an anchor at NBC in Washington. Her display photo is one taken when she just finished hosting a morning show, sitting beside the news table as an anchor. It's totally gorgeous of her. And as much as I'm jealous of her(I badly wonder whether I'm going to get there someday), I also feel strongly heartened that someone I know has achieved the goal she has pursued for so long. And most importantly, she demonstrates to me that the dreams seem so far away when we thought of it, is actually achievable. Meanwhile, I also realized that undoubtedly, what she has achieved is earned. As for me, what have I done to deserve my dreams? What is waiting to be done for me to earn the life I've been chasing? I hate self-questioning but I also believe it's a must. And as to the answers, well, definitely far from enough.

Looking at the bright side, at least I've done the first step, which is to realize that I should aim high. It's always worth it to aim high, as long as you decide it's worthy.